August 09, 2011 09:32:07am
I was in rehab (court ordered)when I got the news from a friend.
I had a court case that kept dogging me , I wanted so much to take care of it , so I could be free to travel and see the band for one more tour.
I took the news kinda hard and when I asked if I could have a pass to go to his memorial I was told they were only issued for the death of a family member. jerry's music was as much family as I had ever known . I was crushed .
I would have done anything to change the news that day , but I knew at that moment that I couldnt stay at the rehab facility , and i knew if I left (or violated my release by getting high)I would face 2 years of prison .
It's funny how at times tragedy can turn into blessings because after a short bit of "what would jerry do" thinking, I got a short pass from the facility and got totally loaded w/ stash I had (just for emergencies lol), and went back to the rehab center to face the results of my actions.
They were swift in coming and as promised by the judge I was soon serving 2 years in in a state facilitiy .
The blessing in all this , is while incarcerated i met a friend who after our release in in late 1997 introduced me to my future wife , we married in 2000 and have have 3 beautiful children, and I have never known happiness like I have experienced the past 11 years. I have never had another epeisode w/ the law and have settled down considerably. But Jerrys music and the music of the Grateful Dead has been a source of joy for my entire family. When i see my 2 year old start to dance when I play a China/Rider i know Jerry is watching and smiling down .
I spent alot of my 2 years regretting my actions,and even more in prayer asking for a new life. I can say that rewards are not always quick to materialize , and sometimes maybe not at all . But faith and kindness has its rewards, and Jerry in his own way showed me that.
Bless you Jerry !